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One of the most controversial and deeply personal sections. Gandhi admits his "lustful" thoughts for his wife, Kasturba, and his later vow of celibacy at age 36. He argues that Brahmacharya is not about repression but about channeling sexual energy into service. The Malayalam text handles this with respectful directness. Ente Sathyanweshana Pareekshanangal Malayalam.pdf